God sees what I cannot. Nothing is hidden from Him. Every beginning rests in His hands. I do not need perfect clarity to trust Him. The Church does not ask me to count my losses. She asks me to entrust everything to God's mercy. That includes my confusion. That includes the moments I was afraid to love too soon.

Let us remember the ways that we hope to be transformed. To remember our suffering ends with God's loving resurrection of our broken souls and bodies. To know that we are not called to know every detail of God's plan for us, but to let our lives be forever changed by our constant "yes" to His love and will.

A huge part of carrying the cross of infertility is feeling like we have so much love in our hearts with nowhere for it to go. While nothing can replace motherhood, not having children does not mean we have nothing to offer the world. The Holy Spirit endows each of us with special charisms intended to build up those around us. We are not without mission. We are not without purpose.