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Friendship with the archangels
Through prayer, we find ourselves relying on saints and angels that hold specific missions or roles to help us heal and navigate our struggle. Through tears, prayer became my solace and comfort. I found saints I may never have encountered had it not been for infertility. I also realized angels and archangels could be powerful allies and friends. As we celebrate the feast of the archangel this week, I have chosen to take each archangel and show how they can be a great friend t
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Sep 236 min read


When fertility is gone: infertility to menopause
It felt like it vanished without a trace. I went from having periods to no periods at all. Yes, I knew I was in perimenopause. Yes, I knew my periods would become far less regular. Yes, I knew my egg reserve was diminishing. Yes, I knew it was a rite of passage that I could not avoid. Still, I could not believe it was already here: menopause. I was only 48! I had been infertile for a number of years and had grieved every milestone I didn’t get to reach: becoming pregnant agai
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
May 74 min read


Good Friday and infertility: death and resurrection
Then, Easter changed. It became a season of darkness and perpetual death. This darkness settled in my heart after we miscarried our first and only biological child. I was left barren and fruitless. Although Jesus died and resurrected, I remained dead inside because my fertility was dead and would never resurrect.
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Apr 176 min read


Finding fruitfulness beyond the wound
Dear Lord,
I find myself plagued with a deep-rooted desire I am unable to quench.
Only Your strength can heal this wound...
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Sep 11, 20244 min read


Through the eyes of infertility: a collection of insights, part 2
“I’m going to be honest with you because someone needs to be. At your current weight, you have no business trying to conceive”. I steady...

thefruitfulhollow
Apr 23, 20247 min read


Following the Holy Family while carrying the cross of infertility
Society wants us to believe that a marriage is only fruitful when children come from it. If that were the case, what would be the purpose...
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Dec 27, 20235 min read


Letters of Encouragement: loneliness in carrying your cross
Dear sister,
It’s a heavy cross, isn’t it? I know it has been hard. I know the mental load you are enduring. I know your pain. I know...
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Oct 3, 20235 min read


Behold, your mother: Our Lady of the Flowering Thorn
So, my dear friend, I challenge you to take up your thorn and make it flower. It may not be the flower you hoped and prayed for, but...
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Mar 24, 20234 min read


Behold, your mother: Our Lady of Cana
This is part of our 2023 “Behold, your mother” series, which will feature a different personage of Mary each month. Read to the end of...
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Jan 4, 20237 min read


3rd week of Advent: Replacing the ugly with joy
“Happy is the man who does not lose faith in me” (Matthew 11:6) but it is hard not to lose faith. In the darke
Sonia-Maria Szymanski
Dec 14, 20225 min read
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